Paradise.

I close my eyes, and I feel fine.
I know what will happen but it's okay.
The edges blur like an old photograph
that's where my heart is, in those blurred edges
the smudged line between now and then

I see everything in old projector screens and record players

Now I'm surrounded with stories to tell
because I was the one left to tell them
I had to

My mind goes back to the days of the ripped
tattered photos in their hands, but to me it was in plain color

It's been long since then, but I still remember
I look down at the faces of youth and smile
Because although my edges are faded and torn
They are just beginning to learn what life is.

So I sleep fine tonight, and feel no obligation to wake,
I've done all i've needed, so I dream of paradise.

What Do I Deserve?

Ladies,

This one is for you.

Since Valentines Day is approaching, far to quickly, I have been inspired to go against the grain in a sense and write what I feel every women needs to ask herself at one point in her life.

What Do I Deserve?

What is it that I deserve in a man, in a relationship, in a friendship all of it. So much of the time I feel like this world is focused on being in love, and being in a relationship and just being with someone in general, is good enough...well sorry to break it to you hunny but that is not nearly the case.

Think back to a past relationship, with the last guy you were with that it seemed to just be so perfect but for some obvious reason, it didn't work out. I feel as though nowadays we settle way to quickly for way less than what we're supposed to.  Women seem to fall weak at the knees for anything remotely romantic from a cute face and nice body. I am NOT condemning anyone because I assure you...I HAVE BEEN THERE and done it too. We are all guilty.

The reason I am even sharing this epiphany is because I feel it will help us all to really understand, question, and think before jumping into another basket of potential hurt. You don't have to take my advice, but I know if you read this it may at least cross your mind, and truthfully that's all I ask.

• Ladies, your man should listen to you.
• Care for you
• Make you laugh
• Don't be afraid to be the one who walks away, don't be afraid to "break his heart" because sometimes you have to do what's best for you, and you not doing what you know is right only cheats him of finding what he truly needs as well.
• Enjoy your presence as much, or even more, than you enjoy his
• You should never be in a relationship where you're putting in 100% and receiving 80% back...RUN!
• Talk about your issues ....TOGETHER!
• Lastly, let the man pursue you my loves. A man that can pursue and love a women right, is a man after Gods own heart. 

We are Princesses to the greatest King creation knows, why would we settle for a man that can't treat us how God himself would. Better yet, how much would it hurt our Father to see his daughters being treated less than they were created for.

Have a beautiful day.